First
I’ll address the situation of out-living my children. These angels were only
lent to me. They belonged to the Almighty Father before they were even a seed
within my body. I rejoice in the fact that I know that I know, that when it is
my time for my transition from the place they shall be at the gates waiting to
live with me in eternity. I must say
eternity is a lot longer than this lifetime. Yes, I miss them and I live my
daughter’s death each and every day that the Lord grants me a breath. And yes there is an added burden when my
friends and acquaintances rejoice at their children’s accomplishments and special
life events. I do travel to that place where
I wonder where my children could or should have been or accomplished had they lived.
I try not to rain on my friends and others parade with my thoughts. I keep them
to myself and excuse myself when needed. But this is the cross I must bear and
it I shall bear with the conviction of my Savior, for without him I could not
GO THROUGH!
Let’s
move forward into the multiple cancer challenges. Yes, treatment is grueling,
tiring, and just not fun. But once again I faced this challenge in faith and
not focusing on myself. For many, many years; Humm… I could say at least 25
year I’ve done an encouraging and edification ministry through sending regular
cards, notes, and writings. For I have found that when you are facing life tests,
being able to take yourself out of your own challenges and brighten someone
else’s day, when they too are facing challenges, gives great joy. Well, it does
for me. But I implore you if you are facing challenges try it, I’m most curtain
that it too will bring you great delight.
Our
Lord allows life’s challenges to refine us not define us. The only way you may
be refined is if you arise to the challenge and do not let it destroy your
spirit. We are created with free will to choose. Is your choice refinement?
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